Relief

Relieved. Grateful. Joyous. 

Those are the feelings that directly follow after, "It's not cancer."

I'm kind of an expert on this topic.  In the last 3 years, I've heard it twice.

The first time ended up being an endometrioma, which is the result of endometriosis. 

This time, it was a little pea sized lump in my breast.  After two months of mammograms, doctors, and ultrasounds, a breast cancer surgeon at a Nattional Cancer Institute accredited cancer center finally said those magical words that made everything else better. "This feels like normal healthy tissue", which roughly translates into "It's not cancer".

People keep asking me if I'm stressed about the wedding.  Nope.

I refuse to worry about what will undoubtedly be one of the happiest days of my life.  I worry about things like life altering health problems, not marrying my love surrounded by all my favorite people.

Today, I feel relieved and grateful and joyous. Time to polish my dancing shoes!